Monday, September 1, 2008

One of the thoughts I wanted got away

I haven't been writing my book lately because it wasn't going well. A week ago I decided to write down a book outline but realized that the first part of the book, the introductions to the two main characters, was boring. If the beginning of a book is boring then people won't want to read it and I will have worked for nothing. So I stopped writing for awhile and read books on how to write a book. They helped a lot. When I wrote the book outline I never finished it. The end of my book is the hardest part but I really wanted to figure it out before I wrote it. I don't think that is going to happen unless I have some huge dream that explains everything(they have come back and they are really annoying). Last night I was thinking about how to start the book and I had a wonderful period of time that was filled with words to write. Fool that I am, I went too far and couldn't remember the first sentence. I do remember that it was perfect. I am so angry at myself. I should tell that to my psychologist. Things I should tell her: I don't want to dream anymore, I feel angry again, and feeling happy is something I am willing to give up to ignore my stupid feelings. I should tell my doctor that I am willing to have a pimply face if I can have dairy in the mornings again. Can't you just tell that I don't do well when all I had for breakfast was a slice of zucchini? My sleep hasn't improved but I'm not as tired. I am annoyed.

9 comments:

Eldon and Janeil Olsen said...

I never heard that dairy causes pimples.

I've read about authors for whom the plot unfolds as they're writing. They have no idea how it will end as they go. Sometimes their characters surprise them!

Love,

Grandma O.

Imagitext said...

If I eat dairy two hours before or after I take a pill it doesn't work as well. One pill in the morning and one at night: that's eight hours a day. I know my characters so well that they can't surprise me-but I can surprise myself.

LYNN C. RIVETT

Eldon and Janeil Olsen said...

I see. But if you count 2 hours while you're asleep before breakfast and 2 hours asleep after bedtime, you're down to 4 forbidden hours. Are the pills helping, do you think?

Sweet Polly Purebred said...

Bacon is in the frig :)

Imagitext said...

I miss it

brenda said...

You officially have the coolest playlist of any blog I read. Some songs I've never heard, some are very old favorites I forgot about. Some show sense of humor. If you have time and desire, check out the runners-up for cool playlist, Merilee and Darilyn. Links are on my blog.

If you like David Byrne you'll like his old band, the Talking Heads. Psycho Killer is my favorite. You seem like you would like Morissey and his band the Smiths, as well. And Mazzi Star. We'll have to talk music next time we see each other.

Chandra said...

You write very well.

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